I’ll give thanks to God – Housefires feat Kirby Kable
This song has been an anthem for me throughout this year… It has been a reminder to give thanks to God for all His goodness and grace in my life, especially this year of 2020. Like many, it’s been a challenging year. I had what they call a ‘pandemic baby’ and although it was very different to introduce my baby via FaceTime and Zoom to my family. I am incredibly grateful to God for blessing me with the opportunity to use technology to connect with my loved ones during a special season in my life.
As I reflect on this year, I am incredibly thankful for to God for sustaining me and remaining faithful, kind, compassionate and loving. I wanted to share some moments that I am thankful to him for in 2020…
- The healthy delivery of my Baby via VBAC ( vaginal birth after c.section ). My baby was born healthy and whole, which is an answered prayer. Amen! My natural labour was another answered prayer because God knew exactly what I desired. After my emergency c section under general anesthesia with my firstborn. I wanted an easier natural, less dramatic birth which I am grateful for because there were risks involved with my VBAC. Still, God’s grace covered me, and I got to meet my baby straight away, which was the most unforgettable moment.
- My Postpartum health Journey. When the gyms reopened in my area I decided in July to manage my health better which is still a work in progress. So far I have lost 12kgs which is all the glory to God for giving me self control with food and the strength to exercise. For example, I struggled walking 500m, and now I am running which is such an improvement. Overall, ensuring my physical health improved essentially helped my mental health too.
- Celebrating 10 years of marriage. Almond has been my best friend for almost 15 years which is a blessing and I am so grateful to God for him. To be transparent, it has been a straining year on my marriage, we have had to navigate the needs of a newborn and toddler, and our family dynamic has changed. Our time together has essentially become twice as hard to prioritise with 2 children. Marriage is definitely hard work, but it is beautiful. I am so proud of our commitment to one and another. We have experienced one of the biggest arguments ever this year in our entire 10 years marriage which I didn’t want to share, but it’s the truth. Although, It has made us stronger too because it highlighted our need for God and that he is the foundation of our marriage and his word to continue building each other up and strengthening our marriage.
“Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;”
— Lamentations 3:21-25 NIV
- The most important would be the Recalibration of my faith in Jesus. I believe this year has been spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically exhausting. However, time and time again, God has been faithful throughout. He has been using this opportunity to clean me from the inside out and focus on him and his plan to Glorify his kingdom, including starting this blog. God and his word have sustained me this year. I have had some hurtful experiences this year and I wanted to completely cut sour and reckless people out of my life and love them from far distance. I know that humanely I was well within my right to do but spiritually I believed God was stretching me in this situation. God saw me feel the pain, deal it back to him and in return, heal my heart. I know God is the only reason I have been able to face these two people in my life and embrace them with God’s love through forgiveness. My faith has been strengthening to make me better and not bitter from the things that have happened during this year, so I am thankful to God for 2020 and everything that he has done for me. God has blessed me even when I have been so undeserving, but God continues to work his goodness, grace and love over me.
I am praying that everyone has the opportunity to experience God’s love, joy, and peace in 2021!
Love G x