The past few weeks my children have been unwell and after 2 x covid tests which were both negative. Thank you, Lord! There was a total of 5 doctors visits and 1 hospital stay. There were moments where I was emotionally and mentally drained, so I did not feel blessed and was not thankful for my situation. In saying that, I am forever grateful for our healthcare system in Australia because I did not have to pay a cent upfront. The thing is, had I not been adopted. I would not be living here in this beautiful country. I am also thankful that it was my daughter’s first illness as a 9-month baby, so I got an 8-month healthy streak which is a blessing. Especially when I gave birth to her during a global pandemic and people have died due to COVID.
Why so downcast, o my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for i will yet praise him my saviour and my God
God sent me a swift and friendly reminded when I got a text whilst in hospital from a family member encouraging me with motherhood which instantly reminded me of my life when I was begging God for my children here on earth. In 2011, I was diagnosed with an underlying health condition called PCOS, which is hereditary. At times, I believe it has at times wreaked havoc in my life, which I will share in another post, but it was part of the reason I experienced miscarriages.
In 2017, when I was under general anesthetic for an emergency c section due to fetal distress. My son needed to be resuscitated and was in the neonatal unit, so I did not meet him until a few hours later. In those hours, Almond was able to be with him, and I was able to look back at my camera roll at those precious hours. It changed my life because as my son got stuck inside me, the Doctor’s said I could have lost him in labour, but God’s grace saved my sweet baby boy. To this day, I regularly scroll through my camera roll, and it is a reminder of the blessings in my life. I wanted to share one of those recent moments that shifted my attitude towards gratitude. I have chosen not to disclose their real names or reveal their faces out of privacy for Almond and my family.
I shared this photo with Almond the other day, and it highlighted a few things.
1) How blessed we are to live 20 mins away from the beach.
2) how thankful I am to have my Mum car to drive both my kids to the beach.
3) how grateful I am to be a stay at home mother and also being given a choice by Almond.
4) how thankful I am for Almond working hard so he can provide for our family.
5) Lastly, I am grateful to God that my children who are healthy and whole.
( I would highly recommend trying this with your camera roll )
It was a real revelation of remembering the pain, grief and loss I had experienced after my two miscarriages. It was acknowledging that I needed to give thanks to God in every situation. I believe the despair of my losses do make me appreciate my children more because I know how blessed I am to have them in my life and to be their Mother!
As I write this, I have some family matters that are weighing on my heart. And if I am honest, I do not feel like blogging about a gratitude post, but I am truly grateful for God in my life. And my hope is in him, and I know God will use this post to speak life into someone and ultimately lead them to knowing Jesus.
Love G x